Seeing Hope

Warning : Post contains a lot of crap that you may not understand

You never once said that you were proud of me
You never once seemed like you cared

You were always saying that I only bring shame to the family name

I never seem to do anything right to you
No matter how hard I try
I just never seem to please you

You never seem to want to understand me better
Not even one bit

You said you treat everyone as equals
Lies. You never actually did.

You never apologize whenever you did something wrong.
You've always wanted the best from the best

You've always talked about how other people are better
You've always compared me to others

But did you ever once thought for even a second or a moment
That it hurts.....

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You've always believe what others say
You never wanted to know the truth behind those lies

You were always trying to prove me wrong
While others are always right

You're always claiming that you know me well
When you actually don't

You never stood by my side when I was accused
You were never there when I needed you

You're always saying that I've change
You're always saying you don't know me anymore
That I'm not the way I used to be

But you never wondered why....

You just never seemed to noticed that I've been badly hurt

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" Don't worry. You'll be fine. It's ok. It'll be over soon. "
were always the words that I kept repeating to myself.

I've always tried to shove these feeling right at the edge of my heart
Forgetting was always what I could only do

But no matter how hard I try
I just wouldn't go away

But after some time.
I've finally seen it through.
That its useless crying over spilled milk

So I've decided to move on
and this was what made me a more open & cheerful person

But I didn't manage it all alone
I had finally found someone who actually understands me
Someone who's willing to listen & accompany me through anything

You may have not noticed but ever since I met you
My life had change completely
& I thank you dearly for that...