Surreal

I dreamt of mom today. Wait hold on, lemme take that back. I meant I dreamt of that feeling of being able to meet your mom again. It was pleasant. Very pleasant. The reason why I said that i dreamt of that feeling instead of my mom was because in the dream itself, I wished that I could see my mom again. Eventually, a smoke of fog appeared. I walked through it, seeing parents that I don't know but I knew that they were already gone, no longer on mother earth kind of gone.

As I walked even further in, I felt anxious cause somehow it felt like my wish was really granted! And there it was, it was like it meant so much for her to be here. I cried out of joy so hard by just seeing her. The joy was just unexplainable and just completely priceless! I was so happy! But unfortunately, it wasn't my mom, it wasn't her but that feeling of happiness due to being able to meet her again after so long was there. It was really there. It felt so surreal.

I don't understand this dream either. I couldn't find any logical explanation to this dream that I had. You know how weird these dreams of yours could get sometimes right? If only it was really her.. It would've been perfect..

To be honest, I was really excited in moving at the end of the year since my new home would be near my best bitch's house. But apart of me isn't because this house that I've been living in for 17 years, has lots and lots of memories of me and my mom. We fought a lot in this house when I reached the adolescence chapter of my life. It was also the place where I was brought to after being in my mother's womb for 9 months. Basically, everything happened. Good memories, even the bad ones.

Deep down inside, I still loved you and up till now, I still miss you a lot..
I could never erase those memories of me and you.

I love you mom and I miss you dearly :')
I never fail to cry or tear every time I think of you.