Valentine's Day was fine for me I guess. Nothing special happened as usual. But this year it was somehow more plain and dull as ever. Maybe its because Mom's not here to celebrate it with me anymore. She no longer can. The last previous years were dull as well but not like this. Guess I really felt empty somehow.

Every single time I look at the camera she bought for me, I get that prickled feeling in my nose. I never actually thought that she'd bu me one. This was by far the most expensive gift she ever bought me and sadly its also the last gift I'll ever get from her. Somehow she knew that I longed for a good camera even when I never asked for one from her. Its amazing how a mother knows her child's needs isn't it? I really miss her.

She's no longer there to buy me cakes and give me hugs and kisses early in the morning or be extremely nice to me just because it's my birthday no more. Everything's just gone now. And it'll never ever once be the same again.

I remember how a lot of relatives offered to help with just anything if we needed it. All we had to do was just ask. Well, I want my mom back. Bet you can't help me with that now can you? If only I'd hug you more often when you were still around. I really miss you mom, I really do. Hope you're doing fine wherever you are and do know that I will always love you.