I'm worried

Went for my second driving lesson today. Today's lesson was about going up a slope. There was another boy like me there too! He was in his PBSM uniform. He was throwing sparkly smiles at me which made me really distracted. His smile really sparkles since he has really fair skin! But then again it makes me a little less anxious since I knew someone was there learning too. Did I mention he was a bit chubby too? *laughs

In my personal opinion, manual cars are really not easy to drive. Unless you have a healthy and strategic mind. I find it kinda hard because I have to handle a lot of things in just a few seconds and if I'm not quick enough, I get nervous and then I tend to go blank which in my case, I forget what I learnt from the start. This really worries me.

My instructor guides a lot when it come to driving. Not to say that this is something bad, its just that because of this, I tend to rely on him a lot cause I know he's there to tell me what to do. I'm afraid that I might not know what to do when it comes to the actual exam. Once I get nervous, nothing really turns out right. And if it doesn't, I wont be able to pass the test and get my license. I envy those who could actually manage this kind of society anxieties. I'm just hoping that I could cope with everything when the time comes so that nothing unfortunate happens ):

My life line on my palm's shorter than before and this means I won't live a very long life. This really worries me too! I'm afraid I might get involved in a car accident! Oh dear god, this wonderful ideas you get when you're nervous. Urgh